I’m sorry I can’t be everything you want. I’m sorry I’m not and emotionless robot. I’m sorry if you think I’m over sensitive and I take things to real but you don’t live in my head. You don’t know what I go through day after day. I wish I could be as strong as you, I wish I could do all the things you do in a day and not break-down every night. But I’m not you as much as I try to live up to you I can’t. I wish I could tell you everything I want to say to you but when I try I freeze and lock up and get scared that you will think I’m weak. I hate it when you see me cry, because then I know that it will make you cry. I guess I’m sorry for not being good enough…..
But I can’t be a more acceptable version of myself. I can’t keep my loudness in check, I can’t take every single persons feelings into consideration, I can’t hold back my tears and cause head aches from gripped jaws, I can’t worry about everything all the time.